Yes… I am guilty of continuing to distract myself with endless tasks, things to do of earth shattering importance…

Meeting after meeting, meditation after yoga, yoga after meditation… cleaning, organizing, laundry, shopping, cooking, working on this website, writing, walking, talking… when does it end as there is so much to do and so little time…

Last week I even made an affirmation poster to put up in my office that says…

I’ll Procrastinate Tomorrow… Right Now I’m BUSY!!!

What the fcuk was I thinking.. busy, busy bee… yes this is me and then sometimes I stop, feel it and let it go so I can grow and glow!

What am I talking about? You know… come on, I know you know… what are you resisting, what are you keeping yourself busy so you don’t have to feel the loss and the pain of whatever… does it really matter??? NO!!!

The truth is very simple, so simple you will probably not believe me…

Nothing matters, as life is really empty and meaningless… Nothing has any meaning except the meaning we give it!!!

What am I attached to… what has me clutched… boy I sometimes a hard coconut

A mentor friend of mine in the health industry suggested I take responsibility for manipulating people’s choices (regardless of intention light, dark, good, bad)… doing things, saying things, acting in certain ways that eventually have people, other people… including you make the choices that I want you to make… so that I can have what I want to have…

WOW!!! I thought the same thing…

Just feel it, let it go and you will grow and also glow… you will become lighter, more free, everything you think about being truly, yes it is that easy!!!

Tonight I had a potluck dinner and near the end I felt this quietness consume my being… I left the living room and went into my quiet space, my meditation chamber and just sat, petting my little kitten who I now call Blaze… Rasta Blaze!!!

After a few minutes I felt sad, empty… hollow… felt I had to clear and began to burn some sage to smudge away what needed to be cleared… busy, busy, bee

While listening to a song by Moby called “Live Forever” on one iPod and Holosync on another I remembered a teacher friend of mine recently explain to Mastah Castah “Ong Namo Guru Dev Namo” and began to chant quietly for about 10min… this emptiness began to get filled with security that I am doing, being and having exactly what I am to be doing, being and having in this moment…

This moment is contained in this moment and when I knew I was ready to say good night and went back out into the living room… everyone was gone

and there was silence, space, there was quiet and it felt good

Just feel it, let it go so you can grow and glow…

Does this make any sense what-so-ever…

Mastah Castah says… It’s empty and meaningless….. and I agree but something in me has left this spiritual body

oooohhhhhhhhh aaaaaahhhhhhhh  ooooooommmmmmmm

Shantiiiiiiii, Shantiiiiiiiiii, Shantiiiiiiiii….. Oooommmmmmmmm

Bless, Bliss > > > LOVE YOURSELF < < < Bliss, Bless